Emotional Wreck… sorta

Posted by Monica in General Brain Waves, Growing up | 3 comments

So how many of you have heard/seen me say/type “I can’t wait till the girls start school!”?? C’mon, show of hands… don’t be scared…  Yeah, well, that time is here. They start school next week. Yes. I said NEXT WEEK. CRAP!!!! I’m so not ready for this!

I think back to the day Daddy and I went in for our first ultrasound. I was 22 weeks pregnant, larger than I imagined I would be, but didn’t have a single thought in my mind about more than one baby being in there. Just two weeks prior, we had heard the heartbeat… of “a very active baby” as my OB would put it.. We went out and shopped for everything we’d need … Stroller, crib, car seat… you name it, we bought it. We thought we were all ready…. and then… the ultrasound tech said something that changed our lives. “you’ve got two babies in there!”. Did I just hear that right??? Yes.. there they were… two little blips on the screen. I think I speak for the both of us when I say that we were shocked…  but it was a good kinda shocked…

Anyhow.. long story shorter… That day was an emotional day… Good emotional though… really… I never thought I’d ever have twins… That day changed everything. No longer did I want to go back to work… I wanted to make sure I was home with the girls…. and so it was… LOL… I’ve had 5 years with them… hardly any time away from them… We’ve had fun times, we’ve had tough times. We’ve laughed, cried, snuggled and argued… One thing we’ve always tried to do was enjoy the time we’ve had together…

In just a few days, my girls will be going to Kindergarten. Yes. Kindergarten… not half day, but the full day. I’m going to be going from “madhouse” to silence and all alone. I’m just overwhelmed with life… Things going on all around me… and the girls going to school… Yeah Yeah.. I’ve been saying that I couldn’t wait till the girls start school… Yes, things will be so much easier in some respects. I’ll have time to go to the doctor, time to concentrate on things I need to do… I might have a clean house longer than not now… What will I do? Well, I’m going to work from home, I’m going to be there for my girls, and I’m going to exercise like crazy! I’ve lost weight… I’m down from a 22 to a 16.. And that’s with 5 months of TaeKwonDo… going two nights per week. Can you imagine if I had more time to exercise? Yeah.. I’ll be smaller by Winter… Which is a good thing! A very good thing!

Anyway.. It’s just been an emotional time here… and it seems like the next few weeks are going to be pretty crazy as well. But you know what? We’ll get through it.. We always do.. .and the changes that may happen will be for the better…. More on those changes once I have confirmation… Can’t jump too fast on that…